Sunshine

Woke up in a good life that I did not see coming,

had to check the room twice, half expecting something,

'cause the boy that I was learned to sleep with one eye running

and he don't quite trust a morning that arrives without a warning.

There's a version of this song where I pretend it never happened,

sunny little number, no cracks in the packaging —

this ain't that. I brought the whole thing with me.

Every bit of it's coming to the party.

Sunshine. (sunshine)

Not because it all worked out.

Sunshine. (sunshine)

Because the day is here and I am in it.

I know exactly what I came through.

I know exactly what it cost.

Sunshine anyway. (anyway)

People want the story tidy: broken, then repaired,

like a plate you glue in secret so the guests are unaware.

Nah — mine's on the table with the cracks facing up,

and the light gets in the gold lines and I like the way they look.

I'm not grateful for the damage. Let's be clear about that.

I'm not saying that it blessed me, I'm not sending it a card.

I'm saying I'm still here and I've got hands and I've got hours,

and the past can keep its trophy. I'll keep the afternoon.

Sunshine. (sunshine)

Not a costume, not a filter.

Sunshine. (sunshine)

Earned it in the dark, spending it in daylight.

I know exactly what I came through.

Nobody has to co-sign this.

Sunshine anyway. (anyway)

Anyway... anyway... anyway...

Sunshine. (sunshine)

And the kid who slept in his shoes —

he's invited. He gets a chair.

He gets the good chair by the window.

Sunshine. (sunshine)

Nothing's been deleted.

It's just not the whole of me anymore.